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12 March 2012 @ 10:17 pm

So I've been really depressed lately. Pretty much about the whole Taiwan thing, etc. A lot of people have been helping me out though. One of the teachers there told me that I need to stop worrying and blaming myself for something that is out of my control. My sister tells me not to worry about it too much because everything will be ok. But my friend Caty, who is actually my friend's roommate, has been my backbone. She's had a lot of trouble in her life, and she's really taken/taking care of me. She says I'm not alone, and not to regret anything because it wastes energy and that I thought it was the best thing to do at the time. She can really make me feel at peace. She also told me that I'm more important than anything that has happened. She's just so amazing, seriously. I would definitely be lost without her.
I would also like to thank all of you that commented on my last post as well. Those really helped me, honestly.
I've decided that it will take time for me to get over this and accept it. I learned a lot about myself on my trip. I won't let this get the best of me no matter how much time it takes although I would like it to be over soon. Haha.

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28 February 2012 @ 09:29 am

USA Bound

I'm heading home already. I couldn't handle it. It's really disappointing and depressing actually. I wanted so much to enjoy it and was super excited! I had all these plans, but I literally fell apart and started having panic attacks. It's the best thing for me right now, an everyone in my life has been very supportive! So I think I'll do ok. It's really mad me rethink everything in my life seriously. I have to do some major thinking about my future and if I really want to be a teacher or not. But shit happens right. It just bothers me that everyone thinks the real reason is something other than me being a weak ass. And the two Taiwanese exchange students keep telling people things and trying to fix it. I already told them why, but they keep wanting to know why, and I don't know what to tell them. The one girl was like oh it's embarrassing for you. I'm like whatever it's not, it's just none of your business really even though I didn't tell her that. Oh well though, I said I would do anything to get back and that includes facing the consequences of my actions

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20 February 2012 @ 04:15 pm

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Ah currently chilling in the Narita airport. I am shocked that I have not seen any Johnnys advertisements!

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14 November 2011 @ 02:04 pm

I'm Alive and Christmas/Winter Cards Post

I'm Alive! Yes, I am :) School is hell, but it's almost over. And that means I am months closer to finalizing my trip to Taiwan, Thailand, and Japan! I know! I'm so excited! Basically, I'm going to Taiwan for an exchange program. During my break, I'm flying to Thailand for a while to visit my friend, who I went to China with, since she's teaching there. Then at the end of my trip, I'm going to stay and extra week in Japan visiting my friend, who's doing her own exchange program. So if you have any suggestions for places to visit, let me know!! All my classes at my regular school is all going to work out. I will just be finishing my classes in Taiwan while I'm a teacher's assistant and get experience hours and get paid! I'm so excited! XD

Christmas/Winter Cards!!

Yes, I'm actually going to do cards this year! I'm buying new ones and everything! I'm on the ball lately. So leave your name and address, and I'll do my best to be super creative!
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By the way, my mom is already putting up Christmas stuff before Thanksgiving, and I love it! Hahaha!

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28 August 2011 @ 12:09 am

Bunch of disappointment

So depressing news. I'm not going to Taiwan :( Sadly, I want to graduate on time! I have my schedules all planned out for the next three semesters (spring, fall, spring) Student teaching is the last spring. It's really depressing I can't, but I can always travel there when I move to Korea after graduation. A great thin
g though, I'll be going to volunteer at an orphanage in Beijing this summer hopefully. the group of girls I went to China with last Summer all want to go as well, so our teacher is looking into it for us. Hopefully this will work out for me!
I hope I can go somewhere for spring break too! Gah! I need to flail over cute boys now!!

Also AVPM3!

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24 August 2011 @ 11:22 pm

GEE!

My friend and I finally learned the whole dance to Gee by SNSD. Tbqh, I'm pretty terrible at it, and she wants to put it on youtube, but it would be to let everyone laugh at it! Haha. We're doing F(x)'s Pinochio next week :D

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13 August 2011 @ 06:52 pm

I need help!

I'm trying to think of ideas for Spring Break. It's my one time of the year to get out of my hometown where I go to school and work and such. Although I might be going to Taiwan in the fall, I still want to make a big trip. I'm thinking Hawaii, or Lisbon, or Thailand, but who knows! Any ideas??

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30 June 2011 @ 11:20 pm

Jin!!! <3

So I'm totally in love with the drama Jin! I've finally started to watch it and loves it!! I'm on Jin 2 now. :P Hope everyone's summers are going great!!!

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07 April 2011 @ 07:34 pm

A Fun little meme

I stole this from sainterre . I did three versions because I have two gif folders and an arashi gif folder!
The Rules: The 2nd to last gif in your folder is who you will marry. The gif that is your age will be your reaction to his/her proposal. And your 25th gif is how you greet them the morning after you've married.
( Lulz )

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07 April 2011 @ 06:40 pm

Bunch of quizzes that actually make me want to post

Hola. I haven't posted since HoMin had their comeback. Basically, because life has been a huge meh. The only thing that was really worthy of being written was that I went to San Diego/Coronado for Spring Break. My dad was a total tool and would seriously text like every half hour even when I was on the ocean whale watching. Totally saw three whales! :D Disneyland and California Adventure were amazing. In California Adventure we went on this ferris wheel where the carts move and we were with these Russian people. The little boy was freaking out and swearing all with a Russian accent, and it was hilarious!! My brother also got pooped on by a bird in the aviary in the San Diego Zoo. ( Hilariousness ensues )

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